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Concept Artist and Illustrator known under "Kilaq" alias: also known as traveler, photographer, musher, animal rights activist and passionate hunter about the life itself.

MY EMAIL: leonheart (at) onet.eu

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My email leonheart (at) anonymail.no is NOT working anymore, for some strange reason I'm unable to open it.

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I'm trying to make it more visible. It's highly recommended to read if you are interested to commission/buy/bid on auction my artwork.

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I've been trying to draw something, but for some reason I couldn't.
I did, but it turned out so bad that I was so disgusted to look at it... teared it and threw in trash. 
Nothing is for no reason. Because I can't draw... it means that emotionally I've been feeling so stuck in one place. Like... "it's not okay..."

It's not okay....


My thoughts are taking me back to my visions that I've seen in my dream world... a black, large canadian timber wolf looking dog with lime green eyes. Next to him, there was sister, that had artistic "spill out" white markings on brown coated mask and spotted body. She had large golden eyes. They weren't pretty looking greenland dogs, quite weird but had "eyes of soul". They carried names, the black one was Altair and female was A'Vega... 
They were my puppies.
My children.

For whom I've been waiting for a good forever. I've been impatiently counting down the last days, preparing for their birth. Thinking about them every day and awaited for my children, Altair - who was meant to stay with us. My little Altair... My dream. My dream litter of puppies after Arnaq and Ulvar that I sought for a very long time, I keep telling people that I'm not just a breeder but I treat it something way, way more than anything that I can't explain. For entire time with my great friend that we carry collaborated litter of puppies, we felt so emotional about it like literally we were mothers/pregnant!


On 36th day of Arnaq's pregnancy I've went on pregnancy control tests to check how everything is processing at the best vet.
I was staring on the computer screen, waiting for the informations or pictures of puppies with tingly excitement. I've seen something for a moment but I'm not sure what's going on... Then the whole team of vets came to see and that's where I've received breaking news that Arnaq is on... 100% not pregnant! I'll save writing a text answering why, but that happens rarely and it's just not lucky happening. Other than that, everything else is OK, good and healthy in Arnaq's that area. No infections or malfunctions. It's just Arnaq's unique tolerance of getting pregnant is really low due to her hormonal liquids. Even it was quite successful mating twice times. 
It felt very, very painful knowing it's not going happen and dreams just stay only dreams. And it felt literally... like a losing children. 

Of course, the litter is now re-scheduled on 2015 year. In next year we will be trying to mate her through controlled method where for sure we'll know her "limited" estrus phase unlike last time. No surprise why mating her was extremely difficult. 


Technically it would be not a big deal, our dreams are not over but that's not just this... I'm just afraid of something, that it may never happen. You never know what can happen in next year.
Just I feel like I can't collect myself after hearing these news.

I feel like the vision of Altair and A'Vega is just only dream...

That's the feeling of that's just not okay...


Tl;dr : FOR PEOPLE WHO WERE INTERESTED IN OUR PUPPIES: the litter is moved for the next year, 2015.

Deviousness Award

Deviousness Award
`PearlEden's dedication to being a truly devious artist is without question. Her gallery is full of beautiful pieces of art that take you on a trip through an enchanting mythological world. Additionally, `PearlEden's community spirit shines through in every area that she touches. From mentoring in groups, to providing motivational feedback for fellow artists, to sharing inspirational journals about her travels and artistic adventures, `PearlEden really is a shining example of someone who deserves the Deviousness Award. Congratulations!
-awarded June 2011

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AkikoFoxheart Featured By Owner May 8, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Truly talented, and amazing art work. Keep it up! I wish to be as good as you in a few years time, since I'm only 13! Double Paws kuroshin on icon  x
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FieryWarrior46 Featured By Owner May 7, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Your art looks like photographs from a far.....
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Zekkentak Featured By Owner May 7, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
What do ya think on the Ruby and Sapphire remake? :P
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drachenmagier Featured By Owner May 7, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I just realized something terrible. I'm not watching you. <.<
WHY am I not watching you?? *changes that*
Ok, mistake corrected. >:3
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Zekkentak Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Once my exams are over and done with,
I think I'll get around to owing my friends some art :D (Big Grin)

I've always wanted to do a piece of work for you
and I think I will once I'm done with my studies!
I hope you don't mind. You really deserve it!
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Exileden Featured By Owner May 3, 2014
Yay! Thanks! :D
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Zekkentak Featured By Owner May 3, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
No problem! ^^ I'm kind of holding myself back in terms of making art for a little bit longer but I'm really looking forward
to start making all kinds of work once I'm finished with school :)
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BaneEden Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Happy REALLY late birthday! :huggle::cake: sorry for the delay ^^;
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AlkryEarth17 Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy late birthday! Sorry that I'm late, and I want to say that your artwork has inspired thousands, undoubtedly  millions of people across the globe, including myself. Keep up with your amazing work!I am a dummy! Kermityay Meow :3 
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bestiaferus Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2014
Happy birthday :)
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