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Concept Artist and Illustrator known under "Kilaq" alias: also known as traveler, photographer, musher, animal rights activist and passionate hunter about the life itself.

MY EMAIL: leonheart (at) onet.eu

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My email leonheart (at) anonymail.no is NOT working anymore, for some strange reason I'm unable to open it.

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I'm trying to make it more visible. It's highly recommended to read if you are interested to commission/buy/bid on auction my artwork.

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I've been trying to draw something, but for some reason I couldn't.
I did, but it turned out so bad that I was so disgusted to look at it... teared it and threw in trash. 
Nothing is for no reason. Because I can't draw... it means that emotionally I've been feeling so stuck in one place. Like... "it's not okay..."

It's not okay....


My thoughts are taking me back to my visions that I've seen in my dream world... a black, large canadian timber wolf looking dog with lime green eyes. Next to him, there was sister, that had artistic "spill out" white markings on brown coated mask and spotted body. She had large golden eyes. They weren't pretty looking greenland dogs, quite weird but had "eyes of soul". They carried names, the black one was Altair and female was A'Vega... 
They were my puppies.
My children.

For whom I've been waiting for a good forever. I've been impatiently counting down the last days, preparing for their birth. Thinking about them every day and awaited for my children, Altair - who was meant to stay with us. My little Altair... My dream. My dream litter of puppies after Arnaq and Ulvar that I sought for a very long time, I keep telling people that I'm not just a breeder but I treat it something way, way more than anything that I can't explain. For entire time with my great friend that we carry collaborated litter of puppies, we felt so emotional about it like literally we were mothers/pregnant!


On 36th day of Arnaq's pregnancy I've went on pregnancy control tests to check how everything is processing at the best vet.
I was staring on the computer screen, waiting for the informations or pictures of puppies with tingly excitement. I've seen something for a moment but I'm not sure what's going on... Then the whole team of vets came to see and that's where I've received breaking news that Arnaq is on... 100% not pregnant! I'll save writing a text answering why, but that happens rarely and it's just not lucky happening. Other than that, everything else is OK, good and healthy in Arnaq's that area. No infections or malfunctions. It's just Arnaq's unique tolerance of getting pregnant is really low due to her hormonal liquids. Even it was quite successful mating twice times. 
It felt very, very painful knowing it's not going happen and dreams just stay only dreams. And it felt literally... like a losing children. 

Of course, the litter is now re-scheduled on 2015 year. In next year we will be trying to mate her through controlled method where for sure we'll know her "limited" estrus phase unlike last time. No surprise why mating her was extremely difficult. 


Technically it would be not a big deal, our dreams are not over but that's not just this... I'm just afraid of something, that it may never happen. You never know what can happen in next year.
Just I feel like I can't collect myself after hearing these news.

I feel like the vision of Altair and A'Vega is just only dream...

That's the feeling of that's just not okay...


Tl;dr : FOR PEOPLE WHO WERE INTERESTED IN OUR PUPPIES: the litter is moved for the next year, 2015.

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`PearlEden's dedication to being a truly devious artist is without question. Her gallery is full of beautiful pieces of art that take you on a trip through an enchanting mythological world. Additionally, `PearlEden's community spirit shines through in every area that she touches. From mentoring in groups, to providing motivational feedback for fellow artists, to sharing inspirational journals about her travels and artistic adventures, `PearlEden really is a shining example of someone who deserves the Deviousness Award. Congratulations!
-awarded June 2011

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:iconvia-tracynguyen:
via-tracynguyen Featured By Owner 5 days ago  New member Student General Artist
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guiltlessDreamer Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2014  New member Hobbyist Artist
all your pictures are so amazing!
you draw great!
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NikkiNicole14 Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
You are such an amazing artist and I applaud you for having the capability and talent to do such amazing things! And congrats on the puppies, That's awesome as well. The parents are beautiful dogs :D ^_^
I wish you the best of luck! :)
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OneEyedCanine Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2014   Traditional Artist
This is for you :D
Congrats on your coming litter of Arnaq pups! 
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Exileden Featured By Owner Aug 14, 2014
Awwww :glomp:
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InTimber Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2014
Your work is just overflowing with emotion. They are not just drawings but feelings/ inner self pictured. "Reading" them is stirring.
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rabidbunnyd Featured By Owner Jul 22, 2014  Student Digital Artist
I already sent you a note about a previous theft, but I just realized that this work is also tied to your previous alias.

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Zekkentak Featured By Owner Jul 22, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
I wanna draw you something but I dunno what I could draw that can represent you <.< You got an OC or somethin? Maybe I could draw you something Twilight Princes-ish hmm
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zukori Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2014  Student Artisan Crafter
mru!
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Exileden Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2014
mrew :<
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