Ready for the Rainbow Bridge?

Why... Just why....?

A few past days, I've been dealing with quite traumatic moments with our family dog- battling for his life. 

That family dog, named Dingo, is a very special dog for us- that no other dog in whole universe can replace him for us, in meaning of loving another dog in a very special way how we did to him.  (Just to be clear, we have only two dogs: Arnaq as my own dog and Dingo as family dog.) I really regret that I never spoke much about him there but only Arnaq was center of attention.

He is our very first dog. We adopted him as a 5 month puppy when I was... 11 years old! I was a mere child and my brother was 9. I was raised with him for entire childhood until adulthood that where I am right now. All animals that are/were with us are treated with the best love and care from us. All are/were important, but Dingo was more than just a pet as family member. More than who Arnaq is for me. He was a big bro for me. His presence at my family house, seeing his golden in our yard was quite natural like presence of my parents there. He had everything that many dogs could dream of: a loving family, protection, safety, a lot of activities, time spent with nature, swimming in the sea every year and a lot of attention. As nearly 11 year old dog, senior, was very healthy, still kept doing activities as usually... well, besides Arnaq's jealous behaviour. But still, they had amazing time together.

Everything has started from him. My passion to sled dogs, Greenland dogs, sportings, animal activities and canines came from him when I was a child. For entire almost eleven years we had passionate and beautiful story with our family dog.

Unfortunately, about a couple days ago he went through traumatic accident. He went to the clinic for couple days where we were battling for his life. 

Dingo is in tragic health condition: internal body damage. Hearing vet's essay of his condition after RTG and tests was very hearbreaking for us. Three major damages are: back spine damage (the least thing to worry), broken pelvis on right leg and his left leg joint has completely fell off from pelvis that caused both legs completely out of function. Basically, he is absolutely is unable to function, nor walk, use his biological needs, stand or even hardly to change position. His half of body is out of function, leaving him into huge pain.

Yesterday we were at very good clinic. There we had promising surgery where they had to fix his leg to joint back. At the first it went good, because the most important part was to fix his left leg and then on right leg pelvis could get recovered before he could use. And that could be the best scenario. Unfortunately his leg fell off just right after session... after few tests, vet had very upsetting expression that chances of saving his leg are very nigh. And that means his basic life needs and comfort would be absolutely gone. Also wheelchair becomes not good option due that he would have necessary few operations that are risky for his life in order to use it. After long discussing and seeking for every other options, there is possibility of serious surgeries but many of vets strongly do not recommend due to his old age that could be very risky and painful surgery. Even if could be successful, the rehabilitation process would be very, very difficult and another series of complications of post-surgerical health issues would pop up. That could set him into odyssey of suffering in order to live...

I and my family are ready to do everything for him, up to limits of his comfort. And we are doing the best as we can for him, amongst the best specialists around us. Unfortunately, as far as it seems, the situation for him is beyond the comfort limits at the moment.... Within next couple days it may lead us to final, yet the most painful decision for me and my family but could be really the best for him...

... is to give him a pair of wings.

I really never thought or imagined of not having him with us anymore. I knew that he would leave from our life at some point, maybe in next two years.... but not that soon..! We really could battle more for him, but again I have no heart to watch him in pain because we really have no idea what results will be. I'm very devastated to have him more but also devastated to watch him in pain. But a friend of mine, experienced musher from yukon told me something beautiful: "For a dog like Dingo's situation it will be better to let him to go, rather than making heroic efforts to keep him going which will just prolong his sufferings. You are already a hero for being able to grant for him all wonderful eleven years since the puppy until the seniority- where it becomes natural time for bodies to return to the earth and soul to high skies." 

Right now, he is with us at our family house... and that's the most important, I guess. We decided to comfort his mental pain to let him to be at our warm family house until Monday where next possible surgery/or final decision will be made. He has traumatic brain damage but I know that he certainly is doing mentally better being with us at home. Just now he reacted to my command to bark- as the first decent information received by brain :'). He has good appetite! I made him favourite meal. Though, on sadder news, so far his physical health is not getting better but actually worse... 

... I haven't slept for whole night, knowing that my dog is suffering and I feel that. My health issues and eating disorder due to huge stress went much worse. Every day is quite difficult for me...

All I'm asking is to please send prayers and warm thoughts for him and us

Thank you for being such wonderful dog