It is a beautiful place. It sounds like from your description that you were at least able to sort out out what you needed to do.
I hope peace and joy find you soon again.
i forgot to add XD : at the end, I'd say that isn't the best idea to manipulate your mind that feelings are just feelings at any occassion (but hey, logically, it sounds like a good idea!) because of the result later. It's manipulating with yourself and your self existence along with your consciousness, sub and feelings. And that part should remain the most true. In the pure truth. Even through manipulating is a way just to chill out yourself.
I don't appreciate (though, again, rationally, it's better for our system of our humanity from cities!) ability of people that can manipulate, pretend or hide feelings (even just in a good way, in way that they think that they can protect themselves!). The best is... to let them to go in true state but in a safe way :>
Such like, speak out what you feel (without blaming the world and yourself too much) and get people who can listen you out and send positive energy, thoughts or just words. Easy, but that's the inter-relations with humans. A little thing.
Personally I don't agree that feelings are a separate thing and as well just "only". Feelings (the true ones, without pretending) are beyond the mind (mind is a collection of informations of what we learned (like an encyclopedia of words and codes) and that comes from the OUTSIDE world. All what mind has collected is outer thing, not real you. Feelings are something that is in yourself. Feel of spirit, energy and existence. Feelings are along with intuition and your existence. Feelings are beyond the mind.
Though, faster I'd say it's all about what our subconsciousness has coded for us.
But I agree it's about ability of "be here and now"...
I am not sure, I might have heard in a different language since English is not my primary language. But I'd like to hear it from you.
thanks, i am glad you view me like that but I need to be a better person for myself. Seeing myself in that state, I feel like I have a big hole in my subconsciousness...
Sometimes I hate my passionate fragility of myself to the world, because on the level of feelings, I am way too sensetive, passionate and emotional ><
I really hope you find the peaceful lake within the dark clouds of your troubles...I love the symbolism...idk...the whole description, the picture itself, it really makes me think, and wonder about all the meanings. So far I've got five different interpretations.
gorgeous picture btw ^_^