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I'm having quite difficult time in my personal life. Especially I'm being in a chapter of losing a person that I love, lots emotional stress has driven me to the edge of myself, and additionaly my health is on a setback because of the stress... that I didn't really know what to do, besides how the world became so empty in my heart.

Though, I always had idea when I'm in a midst of enormous stress, travelling to very unusual places with emanating very peaceful energy to your mind and soul. That could be helpful to "find a peace in yourself" and answers.
However, this time I really didn't feel to go anywhere or do something for myself. But after battling with my mind, I decided to go, especially go through part of going through long hours of train rides and many hours of hiking in the mountains. At first, it made me to feel worse because I was thinking too much. Hiking didn't help a lot due to long, boring, monotous walk- it caused me to think even more. And I became even sadder.

I reached to the goal- which was very unusual. Peaceful lake in midst of dark, depressing and rageous clouds with bits of light shines.

Despite that I've reached there, for the entire Journey I've carried a baggage of my difficult and poignant feelings. It traversed along with me. No matter where I will go, if the feelings are not taken care of, fixed they will remain within you anywhere in the world. As there is that wise saying.
Of course that trip wasn't vain at all, at least I made some thinking and conclusions... I thought, I still have options to try out something...
After returning from that trip -despite that being in the nature I was still doing unwell during hike- I feel like I've gained some kind of faith. Maybe I can fix something that has been broken. An image of dark colored, with some vibrant, shimmering psychedelic lavender, indigo and turquoise colors of that lake is stuck in my mind...

Maybe there I should have also send my shattered heart into pieces to heavens, let it to heal...

I don't know.
Love is an untamed force.

Onto technical thing, I'm quite impressed of Sony SLT cameras that are are far more unique than DSLR...
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Moltenkitty Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2015   General Artist
Thanks for the description again. :)
Oh, it's very spectacular)))
Kitten-Pie Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2014  Student General Artist
I know I'm just some random watcher, but for what it's worth, I love your art and I hope you feel better!
Jax106931 Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow. I was passing through my watches and I stopped at this one for some reason. I read what you said and it was just touching. In any case, I'm here if you ever wanna like contact me and talk. I'm told I should be a therapist XD In any case I'm also a lonely person so conversation is welcome :) I hope  you feel well!
AmbivalentLotophage Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2013
Faith is a projection on reality, not reality. Believing and basing things on reality will be of much more benefit to you.
JohnAndrewSmith Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2013
A beautiful photo. It's amazing the things we can learn with nature.
Swiftlook Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2013
it's make me remeber my holydays in the mountains and i can said just on looking this pictures tha tthe water is ver very cold idon't now if try but so clear water is rellay good to drink ;)

Problems are problems they will stay if take care off but if understand than let them go
Aanza Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
This view is absolutely amazing! * O * 
brian-hermelijn Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2013
WE can run into depressing times, hard times, difficult times, whichever way you want to interpret it. But what we need to know is, that we can still breath. By breathing deeply during those times, at least a few times, you will start to calm yourself, and be able to just be peace. 

That's at least how I see it. And it always worked for me. By just breathing, especially deep breaths.

Thanks for sharing this lovely picture! 
Black-Wren Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2013

It is a beautiful place.  It sounds like from your description that you were at least able to sort out out what you needed to do.


I hope peace and joy find you soon again.

Exileden Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2013
Oh, thank you so much for featuring my less known field of art- photography! Great choice of other photos, too. Thanks for inspiration!
lieveheersbeestje Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2013
You're very welcome! :aww:
Keep it up!
kitsunee Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2013
really awesome place to be !
annabre7 Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
I think you have really captured a beautiful photo here, and I am sorry for your hard times. But without suffering there can be no compassion <3
That-Dude247 Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Grats on making it to the front page again :D
AzureAmbition Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
This is amazing! I love the blueness of the water and the way it reflects the mountains
soulvoid93 Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I f*cking LOVE this picture... Amazing shot!
mbnn1079 Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2013
God bless you and grant you peace during this difficult time! Hang in there, okay? Best wishes to you...
xXxBlueStarsxXx Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2013
You are not alone through this dear, though the heart may ache with fierce grief, the wound is a gateway to greater opportunity. A new dimension of love and new beginnings shone here through your journey. Take this moment of falling and stress and take the step forward of embracing it, all of it...and let it drive you deeper to nourish and forgive.....Never give up. :huggle:
Exileden Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2013
A very nice words :hug:
xXxBlueStarsxXx Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2013
You're welcome :3
Rin95 Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Beautiful picture. I hope everything turns out just right for you. My best wishes for that.
MrDeMarr10 Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
Willow421 Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
This is wonderful!
0xDB Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2013
Sometimes, only sometimes, it can help to tell your mind that your feelings are only feelings, they come and they go but they are only feelings. The feelings are not you, they are separate from your self. They may feel overwhelming and so powerful that the mind can not think of anything else but they are still only feelings.

It is important to have feelings, to allow them to be, not to suppress them. It is also important to keep trying to be in the "here and now" with your mind.

Have you heard of Mindfulness?
Exileden Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2013

i forgot to add XD : at the end, I'd say that isn't the best idea to manipulate your mind that feelings are just feelings at any occassion (but hey, logically, it sounds like a good idea!) because of the result later. It's manipulating with yourself and your self existence along with your consciousness, sub and feelings. And that part should remain the most true. In the pure truth. Even through manipulating is a way just to chill out yourself. 

I don't appreciate (though, again, rationally, it's better for our system of our humanity from cities!) ability of people that can manipulate, pretend or hide feelings (even just in a good way, in way that they think that they can protect themselves!). The best is... to let them to go in true state but in a safe way :>

Such like, speak out what you feel (without blaming the world and yourself too much) and get people who can listen you out and send positive energy, thoughts or just words. Easy, but that's the inter-relations with humans. A little thing.

0xDB Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2013
Mindfulness is all about the "here and now". It is a way of protecting your self from depression. Part of it is the circle of mindfulness which goes: perceive -> accept -> let go -> perceive ...

Practicing mindfulness for a few minutes everyday can lead to a more relaxed attitude towards your feelings, regardless of how difficult a phase of life you're currently going through.

I absolutely agree that feelings are important and that you're not supposed to suppress them. Being aware/mindful about them is not suppressing them. It is also not about rationalizing them away or brushing them off as unimportant.

Still, they are feelings, your self is more, much more than those feelings and the goal is to not allow them to overpower everything else, so that you will not become paralyzed and unable to do/think anything at all.

An example of mindfulness:
You could hear a loud noise and immediately become annoyed or angry, because of previous bad experience that has gone into your consciousness or subconsciousness. That feeling of anger is not you. It is a feeling. By being mindful about it, you could just describe the perception "there was a loud noise" without judging it or jumping through to the automated feeling which is triggered by previous experience, accept it and let it go without getting angry.

By doing that, over a long period of time, we can discover which feelings are real and which feelings are because of previous unfortunate conditioning of our minds.

(English is not my primary language either :) )

Exileden Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2013

Personally I don't agree that feelings are a separate thing and as well just "only". Feelings (the true ones, without pretending) are beyond the mind (mind is a collection of informations of what we learned (like an encyclopedia of words and codes) and that comes from the OUTSIDE world. All what mind has collected is outer thing, not real you. Feelings are something that is in yourself. Feel of spirit, energy and existence. Feelings are along with intuition and your existence. Feelings are beyond the mind.

Though, faster I'd say it's all about what our subconsciousness has coded for us.

But I agree it's about ability of "be here and now"... 

I am not sure, I might have heard in a different language since English is not my primary language. But I'd like to hear it from you. 

Zekkentak Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2013  Student General Artist
Hiking can sometimes make ones brain so vivid that it can come to conclusions that can at times, be seriously depressing..
But it does however, help the mind to reach solutions that being continually depressed isn't ones only option, if you get me.

Maybe thats why we are encouraged to go travelling at a younger age to get an idea of what
we want to do in life in the future as well as to settle and tame our internal emotions and thoughts.

I hope your heart, soul, body and mind settles.

And love is definitely a force to be reckoned with
and it scares a lot of us off from approaching it :P
EmmaLindberg Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Nice !!!:birdytard: 
flame418 Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2013
Nice picture!
gmdwilcox Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Just looking at this brings me peace, thank you for sharing it and your feelings. I think your poignant words helped a lot of folks feel the peace your picture embodies more deeply.
Exileden Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2013
Rosstarot Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2013
They say the living should smile, for the dead cannot.

I wish you'll be fine because you're a good person.
Exileden Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2013

thanks, i am glad you view me like that but I need to be a better person for myself. Seeing myself in that state, I feel like I have a big hole in my subconsciousness...

Sometimes I hate my passionate fragility of myself to the world, because on the level of feelings, I am way too sensetive, passionate and emotional ><

Houndourka Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2013
Islandia? Przepiękne miejsce (:
Exileden Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2013
Nie ;>
Houndourka Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2013
tak czy inaczej, jesteś w pięknym miejscu, o! :D
RonaldFoerster Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2013
That's breathtaking.........simply beautiful!

art-n-rythym Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2013
I like that this isn't over-processed. Natural, the way it should look. thanks
spiritImmortalLisa Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2013
beautyful lanscape.. impresses
what do want to do? maybe you need do it? but now you have only time.. I hope you can return your losing love (sorry my bad english) and good luck
animallover1990 Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
sorry to hear that your personal life isnt going to well at the moment, i hope it gets better. i just went hiking today my self and now i feel even better.

lovely lake by the way, when i see your art and photos i feel like going out on a long adventure. thankyou
HareTrinity Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
That's a gorgeous lake!
ArtLover25 Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2013
That is such a gorgeous photograph, but I am sorry that you have not been up to par. I wish you the absolute best - I hope everything works out and that you feel better soon.
If you ever just feel the need to talk, feel free to shoot over a message. I am a very good listener. ;) :hug:
Karin-Chan14 Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Really beautiful ! I hope you find peace soon :) !
Resennar Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2013
That's absolutely beautiful and seems very peaceful. Sorry to hear that you haven't been doing too well.  I hope all gets better for you :hug:
Rosewolf86 Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
That is an awesome looking picture.  I am sorry for your loss. I hope you feel better soon c:
adarkworldfantasy Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Such beautiful landscape :heart:
RainMoon11 Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow! Love that picture its relaxing!! Is it Oregon?? Well I know that looding someone is hard beacause i lost someone of vey close but you get over over it(not over like forget ) but you still will remeber the happy times with that person =)

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