Though, I always had idea when I'm in a midst of enormous stress, travelling to very unusual places with emanating very peaceful energy to your mind and soul. That could be helpful to "find a peace in yourself" and answers.
However, this time I really didn't feel to go anywhere or do something for myself. But after battling with my mind, I decided to go, especially go through part of going through long hours of train rides and many hours of hiking in the mountains. At first, it made me to feel worse because I was thinking too much. Hiking didn't help a lot due to long, boring, monotous walk- it caused me to think even more. And I became even sadder.
I reached to the goal- which was very unusual. Peaceful lake in midst of dark, depressing and rageous clouds with bits of light shines.
Despite that I've reached there, for the entire Journey I've carried a baggage of my difficult and poignant feelings. It traversed along with me. No matter where I will go, if the feelings are not taken care of, fixed they will remain within you anywhere in the world. As there is that wise saying.
Of course that trip wasn't vain at all, at least I made some thinking and conclusions... I thought, I still have options to try out something...
After returning from that trip -despite that being in the nature I was still doing unwell during hike- I feel like I've gained some kind of faith. Maybe I can fix something that has been broken. An image of dark colored, with some vibrant, shimmering psychedelic lavender, indigo and turquoise colors of that lake is stuck in my mind...
Maybe there I should have also send my shattered heart into pieces to heavens, let it to heal...
I don't know.
Love is an untamed force.
Onto technical thing, I'm quite impressed of Sony SLT cameras that are are far more unique than DSLR...
Problems are problems they will stay if take care off but if understand than let them go
It is a beautiful place. It sounds like from your description that you were at least able to sort out out what you needed to do.
I hope peace and joy find you soon again.
i forgot to add XD : at the end, I'd say that isn't the best idea to manipulate your mind that feelings are just feelings at any occassion (but hey, logically, it sounds like a good idea!) because of the result later. It's manipulating with yourself and your self existence along with your consciousness, sub and feelings. And that part should remain the most true. In the pure truth. Even through manipulating is a way just to chill out yourself.
I don't appreciate (though, again, rationally, it's better for our system of our humanity from cities!) ability of people that can manipulate, pretend or hide feelings (even just in a good way, in way that they think that they can protect themselves!). The best is... to let them to go in true state but in a safe way :>
Such like, speak out what you feel (without blaming the world and yourself too much) and get people who can listen you out and send positive energy, thoughts or just words. Easy, but that's the inter-relations with humans. A little thing.
Personally I don't agree that feelings are a separate thing and as well just "only". Feelings (the true ones, without pretending) are beyond the mind (mind is a collection of informations of what we learned (like an encyclopedia of words and codes) and that comes from the OUTSIDE world. All what mind has collected is outer thing, not real you. Feelings are something that is in yourself. Feel of spirit, energy and existence. Feelings are along with intuition and your existence. Feelings are beyond the mind.
Though, faster I'd say it's all about what our subconsciousness has coded for us.
But I agree it's about ability of "be here and now"...
I am not sure, I might have heard in a different language since English is not my primary language. But I'd like to hear it from you.
But it does however, help the mind to reach solutions that being continually depressed isn't ones only option, if you get me.
Maybe thats why we are encouraged to go travelling at a younger age to get an idea of what
we want to do in life in the future as well as to settle and tame our internal emotions and thoughts.
I hope your heart, soul, body and mind settles.
And love is definitely a force to be reckoned with
and it scares a lot of us off from approaching it
thanks, i am glad you view me like that but I need to be a better person for myself. Seeing myself in that state, I feel like I have a big hole in my subconsciousness...
Sometimes I hate my passionate fragility of myself to the world, because on the level of feelings, I am way too sensetive, passionate and emotional ><
what do want to do? maybe you need do it? but now you have only time.. I hope you can return your losing love (sorry my bad english) and good luck
lovely lake by the way, when i see your art and photos i feel like going out on a long adventure. thankyou
If you ever just feel the need to talk, feel free to shoot over a message. I am a very good listener.