A couple days ago, I was spending my time to expand my new horizons of photography that I've been dreaming for- aerial photography. That's something I've neglected too much because of the stuff in my head was, lot's of crap bothered me, health and life issues, damned small crap kept me away from realizing things what I really wanted to do.
When I've jumped out of a plane after passing the second layer of clouds, at 4200m elevation...
I felt like Link from Skyward Sword jumping out of his Loftwing.
The experience of skydiving is very immense and surreal. My most favourite moment is when I crawl on the edge of plane's "door" and giving my glare downward. Your first thought is like that:
Still, being in the place it does feel earthy and natural for your body. You feel like your body and mind are connected together. You can feel how the time goes.
"Okay, gotta hold something…"
After swinging 2-3 times to prepare jumping, I've jumped off and those "five seconds after" are the best feelings you can experience ever. That's something I can't describe. While you jump, your body is overwhelmed with awesomeness feeling like there are no boundaries and you feel like a freespirit. Perhaps, it's like when your soul leaves your body. You are becoming a free soul.
Also it becomes scariest feeling sometimes.
You are falling.
You are gonna die.
When you experience it for the first time, you feel like your body and subconsciousness that is responsible for your own safety are sort of naturally panicking. Because falling and floating in the skies is something that wasn't designed for earthlings by Nature. Also, I've felt like I was drowning since I couldn't breathe and extreme pressure in my ears.
Also that's very, very different feeling from falling from the heights (such like bungee or falling from the tree or mountain) which indeed creates phoby from falling, strong tense of gravity (located in the part of ear/brain that is responsible for your balance)- because you feel your being surrounded within limited space. Earth do have boundaries and they tighten your mind. But in the skies or space, there are no boundaries and that becomes totally different feeling.
This is that best feeling is that you are in open space. Open world. Universe. Whatever you want to call. There are no boundaries.
Free falling is something that I can compare to the dream world. In dreams, especially while lucid dreaming, you have that *special* feeling of antimatter, time does not flow (you feel just inner awesomeness) and surrealistic feeling- did anybody ever dream to fly or soar in dreams? That's how it feels…okay, almost like that…
For the entire time, I've felt so much of adrenaline, excitement and mostly surreal feeling like my soul flew away from my body. Simply, sort of psychedelic feeling.
After spending "sky time" upwards, being back on my feet on ground felt kind of… strange.
In result I did stuff which I used to hate doing or felt too lazy- especially the small tasks which are quite time consuming, frustrating and give me back pains such like picking up dead plants and weed which overgrew our stoney sidewalk that makes our yard as the ugliest in our neighbourhood.
Finally I did a decent digital painting which I always neglected.
And so on.
That experience gave me a new, fresh energy and the stronger will for changes. For the new changes in my life that I really need to make.
And, no, I'm not aerial photographer yet, it takes a lot of time, more practices and experience with sky themed environment and it's practices. I'm still learning to skydive/AFF. What I've started doing is becoming my new passion and perhaps, new goal. I feel like having a passion is probably the most important thing in life. Knowing what you want to do and feel immense enjoyment can overcome many issues such like emotional issues with society, relationship breakage, family issues and illness- it is something that we can fully control for ourselves, unlike, things such like love (another person), friends, health stuff are things out of our control.
But don't follow what is being stereotyped, bring destruction, being forced and mainstreamed.
If you have a passion, share. And describe your feelings. The Passion Sharing discussion will be in next journal :>